Holy Week 2018 – Long Valley Idaho

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Forgiveness and Healing and having a “default” of love

Forgiveness

Matthew 5:23-24 “This is how I want you to conduct yourself in these matters. If you enter your place of worship and, about to make an offering, you suddenly remember a grudge a friend has against you, abandon your offering, leave immediately, go to this friend and make things right. Then and only then, come back and work things out with God.”

I never would say that I am an expert at relationships…I am simply like many of you…I do my best to be a loving person…someone in whom people can trust but also sense the presence/person of Jesus.  I’ve struggled like most of you with conflict and issues of forgiveness.  It has been much easier for me to allow “issues” to blow over and not have to deal directly with conflict.  I grew up in a home where the baseline meaning in life was – “avoid conflict”.  So, that dynamic has been something that I have intentionally had to grapple with over the years of life.  Conflict is a given in any relationship…in fact, the more potential for intimacy, the great the potentiality for conflict to raise its challenging head.  Scott Peck helped me though…years ago, I read one of his books where he states that we can never fulfill or enter into a vision of true “community” (oneness, intimacy, etc.) until we were willing to enter the “tunnel of chaos” which is paramount in moving us from pseudo-community to true community.  That challenged coupled with some painful relationships that I had to confront in a loving, persistent and intentional manner helped me to “grow up” in terms of conflict.  I’m not saying I do it well…I just navigate conflict with my eye and heart on the Lord and a prayer that a relationship can be healed.  Reconciliation comes at a high price (our pride, arrogance, etc.) but is rewarded with a desirable emotional/spiritual payoff – peace and joy and personal freedom!

As Matthew 5 states, sometimes freedom and forgiveness start with us…you and me.  I am not saying that each of us doesn’t have “rights” when it comes to expecting the “other” to take the first step (especially if it is the “other” who wronged us)…but actually Jesus is saying something massively profound in this text…freedom and forgiveness is more important to the one who has been “wronged” than the one who perpetrated the hurt.  As the Lord says in other sections of scripture, we will always “reap what we sow”…if you are sowing hurt and pain, you’ll reap it (sooner or later).  So the personal freedom that can fill our hearts even if we are the “wronged party” needs to start with us.  I know this to be true right now in my life…there are some relationships in which I need to take the first step.  To wait simply keeps me running the wrongdoing/hurtful words/actions through my head and heart time and again…to take the first step is to take the initial step into the light.  That’s where I want to live…in the light…even if the “other” isn’t ready to come clean with their responsibility in the brokenness or wound in the relationship, at least it gives me some freedom and spurs my heart on to love.  You know, I’ve tried to do my best to honor God in all my relationships…how about you?  And if that is your heart’s desire, like it is mine, doesn’t it start with offering forgiveness and healing even when it seems like might be the furthest thing from what the “other” might be willing to admit?  I don’t know…I don’t have all the answers…but I praise God that the Spirit leads me through this part of the journey of Kingdom living.  All I know is that if I’m going to err, I would rather err on the side of love, freedom, healing, and forgiveness than on any “other side”.  What say you?

Silence? Demonic or Divine?

A blog post I just read a few moments ago has something important to say…see what you think:

“One of our main problems is that in this chatty society, silence has become a very fearful thing. For most people, silence creates itchiness and nervousness. Many experience silence not as full and rich, but as empty and hollow. For them, silence is like a gaping abyss which can swallow them up.

As soon as a minister says during a worship service, “Let us be silent for a few moments,” people tend to become restless and pre-occupied with only one thought: “When will this be over?” Imposed silence often creates hostility and resentment.

Many ministers who have experimented with silence in their services have soon found out that silence can be more demonic than divine and have quickly picked up the signals that were saying: “Please keep talking.” It is quite understandable that most forms of ministry avoid silence precisely so as to ward off the anxiety it provokes.”1

~Way of the Heart, pg. 52

From St. John of the Cross…and a reflection on the “true” self that God is attempting to shape in you…

1St. John of the Cross:

“…God has to work in the soul in secret and in darkness because if we fully knew what was happening, and what Mystery, transformation, God and Grace will eventually ask of us, we would either try to take charge (a move of the false self) or stop the whole process (a move of fear and stuckness).”

The exploration of the dichotomy between the “false self” and “true self” is one journey you need to take.

“There is a truth that lives within us that will be with us forever” (2 John 2). But most of us know little about this, so we end up as St. Augustine admits in his Confessions: “Late have I loved you, Beauty so very ancient and so ever new. Late have I loved you! You were within but I was without!”

One of my spiritual mentors remarked, “When the True Self becomes clearer to you…you will have found an absolute reference point that is both utterly within you and utterly beyond you at the very same time.”

I promise you that the discovery of your True Self will feel like a thousand pounds of weight has fallen from your back. You will no longer have to build, protect, or promote any idealized self-images.

Here is a link to a document that I wrote not too long ago that spells out the distinction between what and who you are and what the Spirit is attempting to do in your life.  The Lord is seeking to transform you…these reflections could give you some categories or paradigms from which to view what the Spirit does best.