More insanity in the USA

c9c11-6a00d83451607369e2012875675115970c-piOk – it was a tragedy.  First question on all of our minds is, “why did the parents let their kid climb the fence in the first place?  Where were they?” Anyway, that’s all water under the bridge.  The “accident” did happen.  There had to be a decision made…the zoo acted and now is taking the heat.  Zoos need to maintain a safe environment.  Even so, parents need to maintain the behavior of their children.  Besides all that, insanity has broken loose in the USA.  It really is amazingly pathetic…even so, it is extremely insightful on how our view of life has shifted.

Walt Mueller, cultural guru from the Center for Parent and Youth Understanding, responded with his usual clarity.  Take a peek at what Walt shares below!


Some thoughts on the Trinity…

Untitled-13879 (1)If you are given a book on the Trinity, you are going to get a WHOLE bunch of deep and confusing stuff.

Well…let’s try to clear some of that stuff up…here is the simpler way of understanding Trinity.

The Trinity is a THEOLOGICAL construct…a word people made up to give a linguistic metaphor to what they observed and experienced as their life experience intersected with God’s story.  The Trinity is God simply existing in three different ways, and He has always existed fully in three different ways (i.e. “persons”).

I envision the Father/Creator as the infinitude of God, God’s bigness, His transcendence.

• I associate God the Father/Creator with the expanse of space as I look into the sky on a starry night.
• It is the unfathomable mystery of God, always been, always will be.
• There are no limits when you try to get your mind around that it just blows you away.
• That is God the Father/Creator, the abyss, the mystery of God.

But the character of God is perfectly displayed in the incarnate Son, Jesus, the second way God is God.

• Jesus is the embodiment of God, and He reveals the character of the Father/Creator.
• He says, “if you see me you have seen the Father” referring to the character that He reveals. Jesus is the “face of God.”

And thirdly we know God’s Kingdom and the work of God (God’s mission) by the Holy Spirit working in us.

• The Holy Spirit is God working in us.
• He softens our hearts and opens our eyes so we can see the truth.

So – here’s the summary –

1. So Father God is His bigness in His infinitude.
2. The Son is the embodiment of God revealed, the Word of God.
3. And the Spirit is God indwelling.

The Trinity is God existing in three different ways, not parts of God, God fully existing as Father, Son and the Holy Spirit.

And that threefold way that God relates to us is the threefold way God relates with Himself. That is the essence of the doctrine of the Trinity.

Jesus gives us some words – see how these hit you:

“I still have many things to tell you, but you can’t handle them now (you can’t handle the truth!). But when the Friend comes, the Spirit of the Truth, he will take you by the hand and guide you into all the truth there is. He won’t draw attention to himself, but will make sense out of what is about to happen and, indeed, out of all that I have done and said. He will honor me; he will take from me and deliver it to you. Everything the Father has is also mine. That is why I’ve said, “He takes from me and delivers to you.”

You see the threefoldness – everything comes from the Father and through the Son and is accomplished in the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit then points us to Jesus, who then reveals the Father.

The Trinity – the fullness of God, revealed in three distinct but unified ways enable God’s Kingdom NOT to be a geographically defined movement. God wanted to go global and in order to do that, He had to have some other means of revelation than the Incarnation. This does not diminish Jesus rather it make Jesus MORE real and MORE alive in the here and now.  Hence, the Holy Spirit is given to all anywhere anytime as an expression of Jesus in, around and through us.

The Trinity – the fullness of God revealed in three distinct but unified ways enable God’s Kingdom to be available to everybody – we can have a personal relationship with Him. In order for people all over the globe to have an intimate relationship with God, Jesus is going to somehow be available to people all over the globe, so Jesus sends the Holy Spirit to us to experience in our lives the presence of God.

The Trinity – the fullness of God revealed in three distinct, but unified ways enable God’s Kingdom to be present in such a manner that God that would change us, we would be transformed. Jesus is looking for a kingdom of people who are not just trying to carry out good stuff, He wants a people who are fundamentally transformed, supernaturally transformed from the inside out and that means they have to have a power within that is not their own.

The Spirit of God, of Christ, moves us in a Christ-like direction. He is in the process of splicing us in, as it were, into the DNA of the Kingdom…

That is a little bit what it is like when the Holy Spirit resides, in other words, takes up residence in you and me – the Holy Spirit (this real life experience of the Trinity) begins to infuse the DNA of the Father into us and we begin to look like Jesus, we begin to think like Jesus, we begin to love like Jesus, we begin to have compassion like Jesus…we start taking on God’s character. All that is God’s becomes ours, because He gives it to us.  That’s his gift.

God’s plan is this: He’s making Jesus’ clones. In other words, the Spirit is God’s “cloning” mechanism – to take Jesus all over the planet (that is the plan of the Kingdom); to have Jesus clones everywhere.

That’s why Paul can say things like this in Galatians: “My dear children, for whom I am again in the pains of childbirth until Christ is formed in you….”

Bottom line – the Holy Spirit, the Spirit of Christ does this – Holy Spirit forms Jesus in us. The Spirit’s objective is for the character of God, the Creator, Father, as shown to us in Jesus Christ and through the Spirit to be fully ours.

• His character becomes our character, His power becomes our power, His love becomes our love, His grace becomes our grace.

• And now God can use us to advance the Kingdom. The contemporary WORK OF THE TRINITY IS IN US – in you and me.

Some ideas on the Spirit…yes, it was Pentecost Sunday yesterday!

1The ONLY way we know about God is that God CHOOSES out of love to reveal Himself.  Jesus followers believe that God has revealed Himself in history, in creation, in real lives, IN and through Jesus (who is the face or snapshot of God, “if you have seen me you have seen the Father”); we also believe that God used and uses the Written Word (contrasted with the living Word – John’s gospel uses the word, “logos,” Ultimate reality) which is God’s revelation.  The “written Word” is God’s words and actions that we can see, ingest and experience.  A guy in history by the name of Martin Luther said the bible was the “cradle of Christ.”  Even more so, the “contemporary” incarnation (or revelation in tangible manners) can be experienced through God’s Spirit, referred to historically and Biblically as the Holy Spirit (the third “revelation” of the character and nature of God as well as the “in the moment” incarnation of God in and through human life).

If you are curious about the Spirit, here are some sections of the Bible that are helpful in order to get a handle on this “Spirit” thing:

1 – Jesus said to “receive the Spirit” (John 20:22 – a POST-resurrection encouragement of Jesus to anticipate his Spirit’s life within the believer)

2 – Jesus said we, “can’t control the Spirit” (John 3:8 which denotes the transcendence of God’s action independent from human constructions and definitions) – if you think you are confused, Jesus said this originally to one of the learned scholars of HIS day, Nicodemus.

3 – In one of the longest recorded discourses of Jesus with his disciples, Jesus said the Holy Spirit was going to be a healer, helper, and advocate.  Holy Spirit was that aspect of God that moves us to worship, that draws us together into relationship, that makes us HOLY (we’ll get back to that in a minute), that sustains us when we are at the end of our rope (something that happens to me, I’m sure it does to you too) and that gives us something we so desperately need in order to do the things that God wants us to do in the world – eyes to see, ears to hear and the POWER to do something about it (you can read this in John 13-16).

4 – Jesus said and the Book of Acts demonstrates that WE NEED THE HOLY SPIRIT to live and be faithful and to continue to show how we have embraced God’s incredible gifts of love and grace.  It is curious to me (and I still have NO definitive explanation on this biblical phenomenon) why there seems to be a separation of people’s experience of “receiving Jesus” but “NOT” receiving the Spirit.  In Paul’s journeys, some “didn’t hear about the Spirit” (see Acts 19).  Paul’s action in that regard demonstrates the importance of our need for God’s Spirit.  In other words, there is something strangely missing without an awareness of God’s presence through the Spirit in a Jesus follower’s life.

Let me put it this way – for some reason, many in the Jesus movement believed in the past that they  were just fine when they had the Holy Spirit marginalized as some sort of ghost or bird…in fact, even using big words like, “Sanctifier or Sanctification” (which is part of the Holy Spirit’s action/work in you and me) in many respects has kept the Spirit of God at arm’s length.  But the power and story of the Spirit is that we need to let the Spirit loose, come face to face with a heap of stuff that we cannot control while remembering the entire time that THAT’S the POINT and THAT’S exactly what God wants.


  • Holy Spirit reminds us that GOD CANNOT BE CONTROLLED
  • Holy Spirit reminds that God cannot fit in an intellectual box
  • Holy Spirit reminds us that there is MORE to God and God’s gift of grace and love than JUST eternal life – you see, God wants us to experience life NOW
  • God says to you and me right now, right here – “I want to empower you…I want to sustain you…I want to inspire you…I want to transform you…I want to “en-fruit” you” (you can read about the fruit of God’s Spirit in Galatians 5).  You see, Holy Spirit is all about eternal life NOW and that means…it means CHANGE!

Let me try this on you for size – most of us who have grown up in denominations that have a great theological history.   That experience of theology and teaching is not only astute but a great vocalization  of what it means to live in and with God through Jesus.  Even so, one of the things about some Euro-Central Reformation based “tribes” bristle against is something called, “revivalism” or the “holiness” movements in more recent Christian history.   Those movements tend to bring the presence and power of the Holy Spirit to bear in the Christian experience and journey.  Personally, I believe that the reality of the Holy Spirit was not the primary focus of the early Reformation.  There was too much work that had to be done to – a biblical understanding of grace and re-right a “ship” that had drifted off course.  Yet, God is faithful and more recent experiences in the body of Christ in history where the Spirit of God and the work of Sanctification have been “highlighted” have served as a vital reminder of something that every Jesus follower needs – an experience of the indwelling Spirit.  In other words, that power of God that constantly calls us back to the good news (Jesus), transforms, motivates to worship and releases us to be the people of God we were designed to be.

Here’s my important “hat tip” to my denominational heritage regarding God’s Spirit.  It’s more than an acknowledgment but a reminder to me about how the Lord shared His truth in my life:

  • I confess – God’s grace draws us to Jesus – God was and is and is always acting outside of our volition.  For example, I pray daily that I can see God (the Spirit) at work in the world and then JOIN THE SPIRIT OF JESUS THERE in those moments).

So, now that we have that out-of-the-way – let me suggest this:

The Holy Spirit is the ONLY ASPECT OF GOD that you and me DO NEED to respond to and cooperate with…again we don’t need to respond to grace for it to be grace.  But the Bible does say things like, “fan the flame,” “don’t quench the Spirit,” “be continually filled with the Spirit” implying an ongoing “receiving” of the gift of God’s presence in our life. God doesn’t force His way into your life as you begin your walk with Jesus NOR WILL HE FORCE YOU INTO ANY OF THE REALITIES of the Spirit’s transformational power.

Yet I have to tell you, God cannot and will not do what God wants to do in the world without US, you and me, cooperating with Holy Spirit, listening to the Spirit, yielding to the Spirit, and watching and joining the Spirit’s actions around us.

That’s one of the reasons why, I think, in the book of Acts there is such a BIG deal about whether or not new followers actually had heard about or received the Spirit – it is not that they hadn’t experienced the presence and power of the Spirit that drew them to Jesus and His gift of love/grace…but there was something more…they needed to see, realize that God’s gift wasn’t just for personal consumption but for Kingdom releasing.  In other words, God’s gift of grace wasn’t just for them NOR it is just for us to say “thanks” to but to submit our lives, our wills, and our actions to as we join God in HIS mission with HIS power to do what He wants to do in HIS and OUR world.  So, the Spirit wants to:

  • Sanctify – make holy
  • Sustain – patience and ability to hold the course
  • Empower – Kingdom power (just as Jesus exhibited it)
  • Transform – metamorphosis
  • Unify – a oneness and connection that transcends tribal lines
  • Glorify – worship and lead our prayer life (when we don’t know how or what)

The Holy Spirit is THAT part of God that makes US whole.   It is that “non-dualistic” aspect of God that refuses to be compartmentalized.  We cannot talk any longer about our “spiritual” life and “regular life.”  The Spirit of God BINDS both together into one whole. The Holy Spirit is that which brings us together and moves us with compassion.  When you feel the tug at your heart (love, peace, patience, etc.), ask yourself the question, “where did those things come from?”  You know where?  The Spirit of God – and you would be right in saying to yourself that you can’t produce those things on your own – you see, when you see that fruit, you are seeing God…you are seeing the work of the Holy Spirit in you and you are hearing the CALL of God to join Him where He is already at work.

Do you know what the Big Question of Pentecost is?  What does it mean for YOU to take the Holy Spirit seriously?  Go ahead…ask it!

Extra Credit – Here are some thoughts by one of my favorite spiritual mentors, Father Richard Rohr regarding the Holy Spirit.  This challenges all of us:

“A lot of mainstream evangelicals (traditionalists and contemporary) may ignore or diminish the Holy Spirit because of the exaggerated, sometimes dangerous (heretical) emphasis by the Pentecostals and some brands of Charismatic movements. So we go in the other direction.

Are we sure that we take the Holy Spirit seriously by focusing on the Holy Spirit? Or is it the Holy Spirit’s role to be the intracommunication, the life Spirit, of Father to Son and of Jesus Followers to the Godhead? We are brought into relationship with God THROUGH the Holy Spirit — not so much brought into a relationship WITH the HS. . . That is, may he not supposed to be the more hidden “member” of the Triune God as his/her/its role is to direct us Jesus & his father?

The most frequent imagery and metaphor for the “Spirit”, for ruach and pneuma, is (literally) breath, wind & fire. Very illusive indeed. The Holy Spirit conveys the mystery of God as well as the essential “spiritual”=nonmaterial nature of God.

I think we take the HS seriously by following Jesus, by worshiping (because he inspires and extends God’s grace in our worship), by growing up (transformation/metamorphosis), by everything we do. I don’t sense from the glimpses of the “Spirit of God” (OT) and the HS (NT) that we have in the Bible that he/she/it demands our direct attention but rather IS that new, resurrected, eternal Life of God that moves within us and toward God as Father & Son.

Could it be that we are BOTH human and divine now that we are the “temple of the Holy Spirit?”  Rohr writes, “there is a part of me that wants to love, heal and renew and would never want to hurt anybody.  It’s just, where does this come from?  I know I didn’t develop it or work for it; it’s my soul.  We would say that this is the divine indwelling of the Holy Spirit – that part of me that has always said, “yes” to love, God and others.  I don’t know where that radical “yes” comes from.  That’s my divine part that is in communion with God.”


I want to Pass it on…

1My online Bible professor friend, Scot McKnight, asked his blog supporters to pass on a story of the Gospel, that being, the good news of Jesus.  When he used the words, “pass it on,” it reminded me of an old camp song, “Pass it on.”  I sang and led it so many times during a specific season in my life that I vowed to “never sing it again.”  Even so, this story of the good news of Jesus is TOO GOOD not to pass it on. Take a look yourself…you make the call!

This book is the source of this inspirational message.

I once had a vision of an artist painting a masterpiece. With lavish brushstrokes and bold strikes, he threw splashes of rich, beautiful color, pouring himself into his painting with passion on a large, wall-sized canvas bordered by an ornate gold frame. When the masterpiece was complete, he stood back and gazed with joy upon the wonder his hands had made.

As if to say, “It’s good.’

Something strange, however, happened next: a small, dark spot appeared in the center of the painting. I thought, What is that? The artist watched as the mold-like decay began to spread, like a crack in the windshield that starts at a point but gradually expands its fissures and fractures into the whole. The invasive intruder began to stretch its thin, straggly arms, creeping its corruption throughout the canvas. The masterpiece was threatened with destruction.

What will the artist do? I wondered.

What happened next was the strangest, most bizarre thing I would ever have expected: the artist lifted his leg, extended it forward, and . . . stepped into the painting. First his leg entered the canvas, then his torso, and finally his head. Then, with a whoosh! the integration was complete: the artist stood within the work his hands had made, at the center of the masterpiece.

That’s weird, I thought.

But even stranger was what happened next: the moldy rot began to attack the artist! The great painter had positioned himself in such a way that the central point of invasion was right over his heart. As the tentacles retreated from the cornered edges, they sank into the artist himself, blow by blow. The creator received the corruption at the core of his masterpiece.

Until finally, with a whoomph! it was gone.

The masterpiece was restored. The artist had absorbed the destructive power until it was extinguished.

To my surprise, however, the great painter didn’t step back out of the painting. Having united his life with the canvas, he remained permanently at the center of his restored masterpiece.

In a way, however, restored doesn’t seem like the right word, because the work was now even more glorious with his presence inside. He brought radiance and beauty such that the painting seemed to glow with his life. There was a sense that this was always the way it was intended to be: the artist at the center of his painting.

This was the true masterpiece.




im-freeHere’s the latest friends!  Abby is FREE!  Out of the hospital and into a local apartment for the next 2 1/2 months. But still…


Breaking out!

All of the daily encouragements are gone, it’s sunny outside and Abby is doing well enough to get out of here!

The doctors came around this morning and Abby was her smiley and happy self! She did everything they said she had to do yesterday, drank the prescribed amount of fluids, did her walks, took her meds and kept her nausea under control.

I know that she doesn’t’ understand sociology or group dynamics but she may have a future leadership role coming in her future. Today on our required walk around the floor, she passed by her group of doctors that were visiting another patient, caught their eyes, waved and said, “hello everyone!” with a smile on her face. I don’t think it was intentional, that’s just Abby. But, at the same time, that was a brilliant moment that I really think solidified their decision to release her today.

Keep on smiling kid, you are amazing!

Off to go pack up, and take a lot of loads out to the car. It’s amazing how much stuff can be collected in a small room over the course of 4 weeks.

Whoooooo hooooo!
Mark Schreiber at 12:01 PM

Maybe one of the reasons we so easily polarize, judge, condemn as well as fail to find ways to talk to or connect with anyone that we would consider, “the other”

1I’ve mentioned before on this blog that I have MANY spiritual mentors.  Some are still alive and kicking (my “butt” that is) as well as the fact that others have gone to the place I would consider to be “the prize” (see Philippians 3).  I could not live my life in a spiritual vacuum.  I need these voices…I need their affirmation but especially their challenge.

I teach a course for a major University on “Religion in the Modern World.” It is a course which explores spiritual truth from a number of divergent religious perspectives.  I’ve taught the course twice and I’ve experienced the same thing twice – people in the course who do not share my specified journey of faith are most of the time either apologetic or apprehensive about engaging in spiritual conversation.  That is a problem.  The same thing happens in the accelerated Nursing program biblical courses I teach for Azusa Pacific University.  Students are often saying, “I don’t feel adequate,” or “I don’t want to feel condemned because…”  That saddens my heart.  First of all, that is not my “spirit”…I do believe and I freely admit that I do not have all the answers to all of life’s ultimate meanings.  I have unapologetically “hitched my heart and life” to the Lordship and leadership of Jesus and His movement in history but I also have a HUGE desire to be in conversation and relationship with anyone whom God leads into my life.  What I’ve discovered from one of my FAVORITE spiritual mentors, Father Richard Rohr, is that many of us cannot enter into relationship with “the other” (aka anyone who believes differently than we do) because of one issue – Dualism.  Below is an extended reading from Rohr on the subject.  I believe you will find it, as I do, challenging as God calls us to be engaged and authentic in relationships without the baggage of either/or, black/white, or right/wrong thinking.  In other words, HUMILITY and openness are the “names of the game” of life.  See for yourself:

“Although we begin life, as very young children, as non-dual thinkers, usually by the age of seven we are all dualistic thinkers, and sadly many of us stay that way for the rest of our lives. Dualistic thinking is the well-practiced pattern of knowing most things by comparison. And for some reason, once we compare or label things (that is, judge things), we almost always conclude that one is good and the other not so good or even bad.  Don’t take my word for it; just notice your own thoughts and reactions. You will see that you will move almost automatically into a pattern of up or down, in or out, for me or against me, right or wrong, black or white, gay or straight, good or bad. It is the basic reason why the “stinkin’ thinkin’” of racism, sexism, classism, homophobia, religious imperialism, and prejudice of all kinds is so hard to overcome and has lasted so long—even among nice people!”

“At the risk of being too cleverly alliterative (though it may help you to remember), here is the normal sequencing of the dualistic mind: it compares, it competes, it conflicts, it conspires, it condemns, it cancels out any contrary evidence, and then it crucifies with impunity. You can call it the seven C’s of delusion. This is the source of most violence, which is invariably sacralized as good and necessary to “make the world safe for democracy” or to “save souls for heaven.”

“There is a reason why Jesus and all the great spiritual teachers say, “Do not judge!” and why angels in the Bible are always saying, “Do not be afraid!” Our violence—and almost all of our unhappiness—emerges from our judging, dualistic mind—which itself comes from deeply rooted fear. Only unitive, non-dual consciousness can heal this violence and lead us to a rather constant happiness.”

“Dualistic thinking, or the egoic operating system, as Cynthia Bourgeault calls it, is our way of reading reality from the position of my private ego. “What’s in it for me?” “How will I look if I do this?” This is our preferred way of seeing reality. It has become the “hardware” of almost all Western people, even those who think of themselves as Christians, because the language of institutional religion is largely dualistic itself (My note – the root of denominational Christianity is dualism – “we are right” therefore we are going to start the “right” church).  It is a way of teaching that has totally taken over in the last five hundred years. It has confused information with enlightenment, mind with soul, and thinking with experiencing.”

“The dualistic mind is essentially binary. It is either/or thinking. It knows by comparison, by opposition, by differentiation. It uses descriptive words like good/evil, pretty/ugly, intelligent/stupid, not realizing there may be 55 or 155 degrees between the two ends of each spectrum. It works well for the sake of simplification and conversation, but not for the sake of truth or even honest experience.”

“Actually, you need your dualistic mind to function in everyday life: to do your job as a teacher, a doctor, or an engineer. It is great stuff as far as it goes, but it doesn’t go far enough. The dualistic mind cannot process things like infinity, mystery, God, grace, suffering, death, or love. When it comes to unconditional love, the dualistic mind can’t even begin to understand it. It pulls everything down into some kind of tit-for-tat system of worthiness and achievement, which is largely what “fast food religion” teaches, usually without even knowing it.”

“It is true that we need first to clarify and distinguish before we can subtly discriminate. Utterly clear dualistic thinking gets you into the right ballpark. “You cannot serve both God and mammon” (Matthew 6:24). But non-dualistic wisdom, or what many of us call contemplation, is necessary once you actually get in the right ballpark! “Now that I have chosen to serve God instead of ‘mammon,’ what does that really mean?””

“Dualistic thinking works only as long as you stay on the level of abstraction. But once you go to the specific and concrete, you find that everything in this world is always a mixture of darkness and light, good and bad, death and life. If you’re honest about it, you can say, “This is what is good about it, and this is what is bad about it.” But if you stay at the level of dualistic thinking, you won’t allow yourself to hold a necessary and life-giving tension. You’ll split to give yourself…”

“The dualistic mind is not adequate to the task of life. It cannot deal with subtlety, it cannot see or deal with the dark side of things, it cannot “discern spirits”—one of the gifts of the Spirit that St. Paul speaks of (1 Corinthians 12:10). The dualistic/splitting mind cannot deal with contradictions, with paradox, with inconsistency, with mystery itself—which is just about everything.”

“Nothing is going to change in history as long as most people are merely dualistic, either-or thinkers. Such splitting and denying leaves us at the level of information, data, facts, and endlessly arguing about the same. “My facts are better than your facts,” we yell at ever-higher volume and with ever-stronger ego attachment. This is getting us nowhere, and creating a very unhappy world on all sides.”

“Sadly, the mind trapped inside of polarity thinking is not open to change. How else can we explain the obvious avoidance of so many of Jesus’ major teachings within the Christian churches? Jesus’ direct and clear teachings on issues such as nonviolence; a simple lifestyle; love of the poor and our enemies; forgiveness, inclusivity, and mercy; and not seeking status, power, perks, or possessions have all been overwhelmingly ignored throughout history by mainline Christian churches, even those who so proudly call themselves orthodox or biblical.”

“This avoidance defies explanation until we understand how dualistic thinking protects and pads the ego and its fear of change. Notice that the things we Christians have largely ignored require actual change to ourselves. The things we emphasized instead were usually intellectual beliefs or moral superiority stances that asked almost nothing of us—but compliance from others: the divinity of Christ, the virgin birth, the atonement theory, and beliefs about reproduction and sex. After a while, you start to recognize the underlying bias that is at work. The ego diverts your attention from anything that would ask you to change, to righteous causes that invariably ask others to change. Such issues give you a sense of moral high ground without costing you anything.  Sounds like an ego game to me. Whole people see and create wholeness wherever they go. Split people split up everything and everybody else. By the second half of our lives, we are meant to see in wholes and no longer just in parts.”

Update – Abby nearing INDEPENDENCE day! Freed from the hospital (at least for now)

fireworksHi friends, as you have joined me in prayer through this journey, it is important to give you the LATEST update!  Below, my son-in-law Mark gives you the information.  Truthfully, despite the exhaustion that is surrounding the ENTIRE family, there is joy as well.  Yes, as you would imagine, transition has its UPS and challenges.  Abby will NOT be able to go home to Ft. Collins until about August 1st.  She needs to be within a short drive (30 min or less) vs. driving the 75 miles to Ft. Collins where the family lives.  That means that Mark and Tiffany will be juggling TWO “homes”…one apartment with Abby and all her needs and the other in Ft. Collins with the other girls.  Our prayers continue and we are SO blessed to know you are joining us!

Independence Day: Hoping for Wednesday

Hey all,

Things are a bit up-in-the-air but overall pretty good.  The biggest update is that Abby is having some stomach pain and a low-grade fever right now so hopefully it is nothing and will pass. If not we may have to stay longer than we were anticipating. If she spikes a fever, then of course we would have to stay in but if not we might be able to get out Wed. or Thursday.

Abby’s ANC is at 700 today, 610 yesterday, 410 the day before and 500+ 4 days ago.  So, she is on her 2nd consecutive day of +500 meaning that she may be able to get out tomorrow! We are sure praying for that to be the case.  This tummy pain could push it back to Thursday or even next week but hopefully they’ll let her go tomorrow. We’ll see.

Abby is ready to be out. It’s officially Day +20 today but Abby’s been in Denver for a long time, since the beginning of April I believe, I think she started radiation on the 5th and she is ready for a full night of sleep without beeping alarms, blood pressure cuffs, and pulseOx noises.

Yesterday we got to start our “Independence Day” training. Basically this is the day that we get to give all of her meds, do her central line care, and show the hospital that we are capable of fulling taking care of her while we are out of the apartment.

Tiffany and I started yesterday with a couple of cap changes on her double lumen Broviac line.  Then Tiffany got to call the nurse to tell her when Abby needed meds, and set an alarm to get up at 2am and 5am to give the meds to Abby. Tiffany is pretty tired today, the night nurse is a great nurse but is also really loud. We actually joke that it’s like having a truck in your room during the night. The nurse was in a lot last night because Abby had to get platelets and red blood cells which is a lot to do in the middle of the night. Hopefully Tiffany can get a nap today.

Praying that the fever stays away, the stomach pain goes away and that they let us out soon.