Confusingly important to feel

Lolcats-funny-pictures-questionmark I'm confused…and that's good!  After a week with my 92 year old Great Aunt, preparing for the inevitable, talking about her financial woes, dealing with a house that is beyond description, trying to find a way to emotionally reconcile the reality in which she lives, as well as attempting to make sense of it all in a manner that I can continue to live without carrying around excess angst, I'm returning home with confusion – and that's OK.  I didn't expect to arrive at home with all the answers…I rather have new questions that can be addressed and other issues that simply have to be let alone to brew.  I read Job again and was reminded that I don't know everything…will never know anything…can never even dream of knowing everything…and that's got to be OK.  God is God and that is that…I don't say that in a fatalistic, Calvinistic sense but rather in a position of simply acknowledging that I have to let go of some aspects of like that I would LOVE to control but will not and can not.  And that's simply has to be…so, I'm confused and that is important to know, admit and feel.  How about that?

Advertisements

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s